Dustin and I, and Elias, Jillian, Georgia, and Luke Rudolph live in Louisville, KY.
One year ago, I was reeling with this fact. Oh wretched and healing grief. In the midst of the denial stage of my grief, I stood in our kitchen crying out, out loud (Lord, have mercy and let my kids forget these moments) "Are we really HERE?!".
Prior to moving to Louisville, I had not really left "home". Yes, through marriage, I had gone through the "leave and cleave" separation of leaving my parents, leaving being "just me", to becoming united to my spouse. But, no, really I had not left home. And in my move to Louisville, after much research, prayer, planning, searching of places and hearts...with Dustin blazing the way, we packed up our stuff and moved across the country, with some of my heart, all of our kids, and away from a place and people I really really like and love.
Thankfully, we did not need passports to get here. And I pray that our next move to our next home does not require passports or visas. Really, I pray that. I also pray, not my will. Even if our next move does require those things, it will be okay. It will be hard. I might even be disappointed, because, I don't want to move out of the country. But I have experienced how, when I submit to what is God's will for my life, to the best of my knowledge, through prayer, and circumstance, in faith, and study of God's word, then he will be faithful to complete what he has started. And in His faithfulness, I can rest.
You see, I am small. I am so so small. I am one person in the midst of billions of people who live and have lived on one planet, which circles a star, which sits in the midst of countless other stars, in the midst of countless galaxies of countless stars and planets and...
And God made all these things. Meditate on that. Really picture the reality of the vastness of the universe. Take a whole day to think about this! Even the enormous thunderstorms we experience in the middle of the United State are tiny compared to that vision. Really picture how minute we are in that vastness. And yet God who made the universe, who thought up the universe, makes himself known to me. Not only that, he LOVES me.
God loves me. It is ALL OVER the Bible. I think I my favorite might be 1 John 4:10 (NIV) "This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his son as an atoning sacrifice for our sin." Exodus 34-6-7, Romans 5:8, 1 John 4:7-21, Ephesians 2:4-10. He loves me and us, for His glory. Not for my glory, although, oh, the infinite and profound blessings I receive from his love. But for HIS glory and purposes. And I can rest in that because he is much much bigger than me.
One year ago, I was reeling with this fact. Oh wretched and healing grief. In the midst of the denial stage of my grief, I stood in our kitchen crying out, out loud (Lord, have mercy and let my kids forget these moments) "Are we really HERE?!".
Prior to moving to Louisville, I had not really left "home". Yes, through marriage, I had gone through the "leave and cleave" separation of leaving my parents, leaving being "just me", to becoming united to my spouse. But, no, really I had not left home. And in my move to Louisville, after much research, prayer, planning, searching of places and hearts...with Dustin blazing the way, we packed up our stuff and moved across the country, with some of my heart, all of our kids, and away from a place and people I really really like and love.
Thankfully, we did not need passports to get here. And I pray that our next move to our next home does not require passports or visas. Really, I pray that. I also pray, not my will. Even if our next move does require those things, it will be okay. It will be hard. I might even be disappointed, because, I don't want to move out of the country. But I have experienced how, when I submit to what is God's will for my life, to the best of my knowledge, through prayer, and circumstance, in faith, and study of God's word, then he will be faithful to complete what he has started. And in His faithfulness, I can rest.
You see, I am small. I am so so small. I am one person in the midst of billions of people who live and have lived on one planet, which circles a star, which sits in the midst of countless other stars, in the midst of countless galaxies of countless stars and planets and...
And God made all these things. Meditate on that. Really picture the reality of the vastness of the universe. Take a whole day to think about this! Even the enormous thunderstorms we experience in the middle of the United State are tiny compared to that vision. Really picture how minute we are in that vastness. And yet God who made the universe, who thought up the universe, makes himself known to me. Not only that, he LOVES me.
God loves me. It is ALL OVER the Bible. I think I my favorite might be 1 John 4:10 (NIV) "This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his son as an atoning sacrifice for our sin." Exodus 34-6-7, Romans 5:8, 1 John 4:7-21, Ephesians 2:4-10. He loves me and us, for His glory. Not for my glory, although, oh, the infinite and profound blessings I receive from his love. But for HIS glory and purposes. And I can rest in that because he is much much bigger than me.
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